love can not fix alcoholism.
the first step for us is to admit we are powerless over alcohol.
it seems that you know this, after 20 years.
nothing changes if nothing changes. we can only change ourself. reach out, make some changes for yourself. it is not selfish to take care of oneself. otherwise, this disease will drag you down too.
the choice is there for you.
are you ready for the journey of recovery?
naive