hunny
The words that your son texted to you could have come from my own son. They rang so familiar.
I love that "he has a higher power and it isn't you". That is priceless.
I also often wake up in the middle of the night unable to sleep and praying helps me as well.
The reason that we are all here is so heartbreaking on one hand but on the other hand, I am also very thankful for the support I received from everyone on this forum.
gentle hugs