Bernadette is right, when coming out of denial, things seem WORSE-at least for me.
I'm doing this right now with my own issues. They sure seem worse and hell maybe they are, but I think I"m just coming out of denial about how screwed up I am.
It's scary-scary enough to incite those anxiety attacks your having. Classic, really. I've lived with anxiety for most of my life, and only in the past two years have put a name to it and started being proactive.
Exercise helps a great deal. Learning detachment. But the only thing that worked well enough to have a substantial impact was not living with my AH.
Welcome Stepping Up. What a wild ride you've started! It's worth it Brother. Take back your life