I feel like a hypocrite for focusing so much on XABF and AF and not on myself. Was I so disgusted with their drinking because I saw the possibility in myself to end up that way? I don't know what to think right now but I do know I need to buy that book and read it all.
missb89,
a hypocrite? no. just a human being. when i was actively drinking, i used to wonder why my ex couldnt "hold it" like i could, and yes, I judged him hard on that.
Then, i realized it was only to keep me from thinking about my own drinking.
You are astoundingly self-aware, and acceptance is key like Pelican said.
Definitely read some more on alcoholism and get educated about yourself.
Women can become dependent on alcohol much quicker than men.
Take care of yourself so you can take care of your delicious baby.
Beth