it's like duringhte chaos all i want is peace, but then when the time comes to have that peace, i feel bad that she doesnt have that peace. what is worse for me is that i feel guilty wanting her to be gone for a while so can have that peace.i have the thoughts of wanting the peace when things are bad, but when i get it i get consumed withthe fears of her being out onthe streets and i fee lguilty for pushing her aside.