Girl, "not much"??? You have done AWESOME!!!! And yes, I have to admit, I felt proud of you reading your last post. WOW.
I'd like to post more but am too tired but I do want to tell you one thing. I don't want to scare you but please keep your safety first in your mind. Please do not meet with him alone and keep your doors locked. I am not saying be paranoid but be safe. People do some even out-of-character things when breakups occur, especially when they carry a lot of guilt, shame and blame which it sounds like he is doing. Good for you for seeing it for what it is and choosing to no longer participate in that type of abusive relationship.