My rule to everyone is never, never look in my journal..it will hurt you and upset you needessly because that is where I dump and work out all my insanity.
ZW, I do get where you are coming from totally. It seems pretty clear that you all are going to work things out and come out more strongly than ever and it's a good love.
You have obviously put alot of work into it and yourself.
and, BTW, while I am here..I was just thinking last night I ought to tell you how tickled I get everytime I see your avatar..that is so funny and real!
(((((((((hugs)))))))))))))