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Okay.

I could have predicted that he would accuse you of infidelity.

I could have predicted that as soon as you blocked the phone he would show up.

This fits to a tee a certain disorder personality type.

Part of that definition (and only part!) is ABUSER.

It's not over yet...hmmm...(I said mark my words in an earlier post..need to go see what that was about LOL)

Anyway, it is not over yet.

He isn't used to not being able to sway you or at the very least confuse you.
He isn't accepting that you are not available to him and he means to show you that you are.
He will prove to you that you don't call the shots, he does.

I believe that this has the very real possibility of putting you in danger beyond the heartache of being betrayed.

There are more than a few of us who have said...we know this type.
If you check out our stories you are going to find that we were abused..seriously, psychologically, (mentally..i.e., ability to think...and emotionally) and physically.

Look at how very sick you have gotten so very quickly.

It can and does get continually worse.

I hope you have continued to see your therapist.
I would also like to STRONGLY suggest you make an appmt with your local domestic violence center. It is not the same thing as your counselor and I truly believe you need that more right now.

I named this as abuse from the time you began posting.

It is going to take some time and strong action on your part to begin to heal and feel better.

I lived this stuff.
I am lucky to have lived through it. Literally.

Today, I have moved with my sweetie to the location we chose.
It bears no resemblence whatsoever to the traumatic relationship I stayed stuck in and that almost cost me everything.
The only drama we are sharing is that he is reading a book that I have all ready read and recommended to him when he cruised through my Kindle.
I have a post here about autumn exuberance...check and see if I am not happy enough.
I am saying this because I was in your shoes a few years back.
Life can and does get better...if we seek it.

I am not about telling you "I told you so" if that is what it sounds like.
I am offering my life experience as an example.

Have you re-read through this whole post?
You may see things a bit differently now than you did a few short weeks ago?

Right now...just breathe. slowly. breathe.
Lock your house up nice and tight.
Take the phone off the hook (for him).
Have some nice warm soothing herb tea.

Look up the phone number for DV. Write it down. Phone them in the morning.

.......my advice, take it or leave it as you choose.

I really hope this gets better for you.

It took me alot of education and counseling in domestic violence to heal from this kind of relationship.

It isn't the alcohol.
THAT was a LIE.

(((((((((((((((((hugs)))))))))))))))