sweetheart,
i think you don't feel better because this really, really, really sucks. it sounds SO painful i can hardly imagine it.
you are going to feel pretty rotten for awhile i think. my belief is, you get through it. you feel lousy, cry, unload, post here, isolate yourself (not cuz you're supposed to, but it's cuz it's what we do) and feel those horrible emotions. then one day you notice you don't feel as crummy. one day, the sun comes out.
it's a slow process, but you WILL come out on the other side.
i think that being in relationship with a psychopath has gotta be the worst.
so sorry