Hunny
Your post brought tears to my eyes. It breaks my heart to see a mother's love and concern turned into a means of accessing and using drugs. Your post DOES help me (my AS is 29 and in a rapid downward spiral--similar situation to what you are dealing with). It helps to see what happens when we let go of our own recovery lessons even just a little bit. Those are reminders that I need every single day. Thank you for posting this......it is a reminder of what I could also do very easily if I didn't watch myself.
I will keep your son in my prayers that he may find a way toward recovery. And I will keep you in my prayers that you can be strong in your own.
gentle hugs