[QUOTE=ala3037;2738441]I know that I have to stay true and strong. I can't help/love/support someone who will not support himself. I miss him but I really have to remember to love myself first.
Yes, remember and keep loving yourself first. I lost that and am slowly gaining it back.
I lost the love for myself and have to remind myself everyday to help me get it back and I can't even love my AH so it really doesn't matter how much I might have loved him or might still love him, I am not loving him.
I know I am strong and have stayed strong but it's really courage I need to accept the things I cannot change.