The hiding hurt me more than the drinking sometimes. I knew I wanted to be a person of integrity but sneaking around didn't square with the person I wanted to be. If I was sneaking or dishonest in any way, I might as well be drunk because it was the alcohol dictating me; not me controlling it. So much crazy and so much effort.
Once I got sober and quit having to hide, I found so much relief.
Keep coming back.