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I'm involved in a relationship (a pretty difficult one, with all of the distance and ambiguity that comes with relationships in recovery) with a recovering addict and it's tough and I just need to talk and put the focus back on me and recover myself.

I haven't been to an alanon meeting since I was a kid. My mom has been an active alcoholic for as long as I can remember, and my brother and I grew up in a crazy household with just her. It wasn't until I went through such crazy times with him that I realized how much my being and ACA has affected my life, relationships, etc.

I was so excited to do this, I even declined a shift at work (and I need the money) only to drive all the way across town, circle the building, park, walk past the building, and then walk back to my car and drive away.

Now here I am. LOL. Hopefully tomorrow I will not chicken out!