It's been a week now and I'm not crying all day like I was in the beginning anymore. I still have a hard time with bedtime -he would hold me tight all night. I can't believe some of the mean emails I have received from him since being here. Some have been extremely cold and not the person I wanted to believe he was. Have done allot of reflecting and remembering the excuses I constantly gave to my friends on why he treated me the way he did when he drank. Working on convincing myself that I can be alone and be happy. I guess if I tell myself this over and over I'll start to believe it "fake it till I make it". Thanks for this site and being there for me when you don't even know me.