Hi again Bosker,
just read the rest of the posts, and came to where you said you lost twins.
I actually cried! What he said.....Good God! I think you need to delete his number from your phone. I am beginning to think you might enjoy the abuse in some way, enjoy is the wrong word but the drama attracts you perhaps? I cannot understand this, I really can't. It is almost like you are not processing the enormity of the abuse. Please, please, please walk away. Adult children of alcoholics is another angle you should be looking at.