Trust your gut
step back and take a look at your relationship objectively. That's what I had to do - I was in denial for many years because my AH was functional, I could never tell if he was drunk or not. I ignored it - I didn't trust my gut and I was afraid to leave because I thought he needed me and I could help.
Turns out I can't help him - he has to help himself.
Don't jeopardize your job, your financial situation - find out where you stand so you can make good decisions.
I feel for you but trust your gut. ((((hugs)))