This thread is awesome...I have felt worse since my AD got treatment..I have so much resentment towards her and the devastation she has left behind while she goes off to make a new life (which is really waht I want for her! I'm so triggered that we are NC now at the advice of her therapist. I want immediate healing, amends , and a complete change inher behavior..unrealistic I realize. I too want to erupt, hit and throw things, scream in her face and make her listen. Think I hear my recovery calling! fEELIN YA!