oH yeah..I would say (at my AD's spa-like rehab) I want to got to EMOTIONAL rehab! I wanted to ahve my own therapist and have nothing to do all day but work on ME and the trauma I had been thru the past 6 years! Seriously, I was jealous! Yes, we are left to deal. Yes, it can feel worse when we "get what we want" and things quiet down and we start to FEEL and REMEMBER. We come out of CRISIS MODE and CRASH. I am going thru a pretty bad relapse in my recovery since my AD went back into rehab.Knew how to deal with addiction, but not recovery..weird. Hang in there I think this is all normal (as normal as we can be!):ghug3