Welcome to the SR family!
Your screen name, cherrybomb, reminds me of the Joan Jett song of the same name.
You have found a wonderful resource for information and support. Please keep reading and posting as much as needed.
There are some permanent (sticky) posts at the top of the forum. They contain some of our stories and loads of wisdom. This is a link from a sticky post and it contains steps that have helped some of us:
http://www.soberrecovery.com/forums/...l-problem.html