Thank you, Summerpeach. While I'm sorry you're in the same boat as me, it does help to get the perspective of someone else going through it. I've been reading one of those infidelity forums and of course, they all say that the spouse has to show immediate remorse, full disclosure, willingness to do anything to fix the marriage, etc. and it gets me all riled up that AH just seems so unemotional. Of course they're not coming from the perspective of a newly sober alcoholic, so I shouldn't concentrate on that site as much because it gives me different expectations of what should be happening right now. AH is hanging on to his sobriety with everything he has, so that's all I can really expect right now. Still hurts like h*ll though.
