He's always been the emotional manipulator, that has been the biggest struggle of our relationship all along. I find it so sad that the alcoholism has lead him to this "desperate" place. But I can feel in my bones that that is indeed what he's doing here, even though it's probably unconscious in his mind.
But still... to pull this when I watched my mom die of ovarian cancer less than two years ago feels like a stab in the back. Of course on the off chance that he does have it, I'll be in therapy for years trying to get over the guilt. Ha! who am I kidding, I'll be in therapy for years regardless!!!
Anyway, I plan on doing nothing for now. Tonight all I need to do to is go to sleep so I can deal with work tomorrow.
A big thanks to everyone for your perspectives, you never lead me astray. With each day that passes this board becomes more and more important to me.
