Deesire,
I was moving a week ago, and still pretty bogged down, and missed this, your first post.
I wanted to welcome you to S/R !
Please feel free to post as often as you like, knowing that the good folks here will walk with you through your struggles, doubts, questions, and possibly a metamorphosis.
Nice to see you posting on others' threads as well. Jumping right in is great; we ALL have experience, and can help lift other hurting people up.