(bklyngirl)
when in such states of mind, i find it helpful to "play the tape all the way through"...
whilst it is understandable that you feel maybe it could have worked, the reality is that alcoholism is a progressive disease and in my experience, things just kept getting worse and worse. and when i thought things could get no worse, we still sunk deeper.
i know in my heart that i tried my very best to help, to love, to forgive but my love was not enough to battle alcohol.
you didn't cause it and you can't cure it.
think it all the way through....
sorry for your pain but you can do this and we're here all the way with you.
hugs.
naive