Don't hesitate to change therapists, if you feel you aren't making progress with your current one btw.
No need to say anything at all N&D, hang in there. This too shall pass.
Thanks Still Waters.
I think I am making great progress with my therapist and I am extremely grateful for her and to her.
This has been in me for a long time, and I've used my relationships and the chaos of my life to cover it up. Now that I'm in recovery, it is surfacing as I spend more time alone and try to answer the question each day, "What would be best for me today?"
I just came back from a great Al-Anon meeting, "women & self-esteem." Learning self-care is very new to me. . . and sometimes when I can't decipher exactly what I want, I get anxious and want to revert back to my old ways. And I am finding now that even if I don't revert to the old behaviors, I am still reverting to old thought patterns. . .
I am grateful for recovery, and I am not going to give up, but it is challenging for me right now. A lot of sadness and grief.