from what i'm reading in a book called "The secret by Rhonda Byrne" "seeing" the life you want is what we are supposed to do to get it. My questions for myself are am i seeing a healthy choice of life. I don't think you are off your rocker, but...and this is a big but, I'm a little crooked myself, though i do think that is normal too, hahaha. afterall, being completely sane is a little over rated. You do whatever helps you feel positive, that is what i think, but i am no expert and as long as you know the difference between real and not, you're okay. enjoy the ride!! I'm actually writing the story of my new life, but it doesn't include anyone perfect, just me and i'm not perfect by any stretch!! haha...though i am perfectly imperfect and proud of that.