(((Steve))) - I think MOST of us fear rejection and abandonment. I know I did. I finally realized they were rejecting and abandoning me, by using...THEY weren't there for me, this person who preferred to be high, and not deal with life, was there.
Keep working on it, sweetie. If you don't work it out, you'll continue to, usually subconsciously, seek people who aren't there for you. Trust me...btdt
Hugs and prayers,
Amy