I need to vent again.
Another letter I will never send to my axbf
I am trying to hate the disease and not you. Eminem sings about recovery I listen to his song a lot. It always makes me cry. It made me go back and listen to a lot of his work and it really touches me. Why do some men care and love so much for their children and you DON"T?
Why dont you fight?
Why doNT you do something?
Anything?.
If it was me a would crawl all the way here just to see him. peek in a window, beg to hold him. How do you sleep at night??????
How do you exist knowing a beautiful little baby boy lives and breathes with out you.
How? Do you hate yourself?
I pray for you. I do . I REALLLY DO. I HOPE YOU FIND YOUR WAY.
TODAY I AM ANGRY.. AGAIN.. AT YOU.. AT THE "DISEASE"
I am so torn. I am grateful, You helped give me my son, but angry I had to save him from his own father. You were suppose to protect him!
Instead I stand alone..
Woman Warrior.
Mother Warrior.
Big breathe
Thank you for reading...wow