Thanks everybody. I had my first appt. with my new counselor on Friday. That helped. It's a start.
I've been sad and feeling so incredibly angry it's like I'm insane with the anger. It just comes spewing out in waves. I usually have a lot of control but lately I can't seem to hold onto it. I just want to scream and scream and scream or break things or smash walls or whatever. The amount of pain in me, it's so black, that it scares me sometimes.