i am upset for her!
it seems that everything keeps getting turned back to me wanting to be a savior. all i ever wanted was for her to have achance to help herself. maybe i underestimated how bad off she is. but i had t ogive it a chance. i could not just walk away or ignore it. i had to give her the support she might have needed to get there. she came close more than once, but after two months, i am backing off and letting her make her choices. it never was about me. there can really be someone who is sincere and altruistic and really wants to help without getting something in return, be it tangible or ego driven.