Jadmack - My AH always would come right home from wherever he was and go down the basement. Not even saying hi to his kids. I felt so bad for them.
My kids also talk to me like my AH does. I can't stand it. I have to work on that.
I have noticed since he has been gone (two weeks) that my kids sit at the kitchen table with me and eat dinner. That's a start.
I understand your feelngs. I have no advice as I"m feeling pretty much like you.
I'm trying to work throught my feelings now and I'm beginning to realize that he is not a sane person. I see him on the path to "wet brain" as I have an aunt that drank her self to losing her short term memory. She can barely take care of herself.
This disease is so sad. Alot of people in my family are alcoholics.
I want to break the cycle with my children. Hopefully I will be able. I want them to grow up healthy and not let people abuse them or drink their feelings away or abuse people. It's going to be a tough road for us but I'm praying for us.
Think of your son. You'll do what's best for him.