Thank you for the responses. You are right. It's just my subconscious trying to sort things out still, after all, it has only been a little over two months since we split up. I have been avoiding Al-Anon because I have anxiety issues and was scared to go ALONE. Codependent much, haha? But tensions have been building around the house with my AF and things are getting much worse with his drinking so I have promised myself to go tomorrow evening and sit through it, no matter how scared I am. I might have to bring my three month old baby with me though, if I cannot find a sitter. I am afraid that she might be unwelcome or a distraction.