I am sorry you had to go through having that dream. I totally can relate to that awful feeling that lingers after you wake up. YUCK. I think you are just a normal human being having feelings that might be a least subconsciously unresolved. Doesn't mean you have to act on them in the light of day. Practicing acceptance and detachment consistently over the long haul should help immensely. For me when I relationship ends I don't "trust" it to stay gone for a very long time. I think I just don't trust myself to stay away from the "monster" - with my track record that is a valid fear. Alcoholic relationships leave some pretty bad scars - take a long time to heal.
