I know he is being honest and telling me that he doesn't want me but it doesn't make it any easier. I find its easier for him as he doesn't have anything invested in me, he knows what he wants and its not me.
I on the other hand still love him and want him - but I guess I don't want the addicted self centered person. I want the person before the addiction took over.
I know I have to move on. Its been 2 months already and I'm still thinking and wanting him. How long does it take? I don't look at other guys and I do have a counselor who I haven't seen for the past few weeks but I am booked in to go on Tuesday. Why am I wasting my time on someone who doesn't want me? Is it because I'm just lonely? exABF says its because I don't want to fail. I don't think its that, I think its just that when you love someone why do you give up on them?