Thank you jadmack. just the words I needed to hear right now. haven't texted or heard from him. I cleaned MY bedroom and changed it around. put all his stuff in the closet for now. Out of sight out of mind. I don't use the closet anyways.
I hope he is having fun. I'm not exactly having fun but I am finally living here stress free. My daughter told me I can do it alone. I'm glad that the kids are doing better. They are talking to me more and even sit with me at dinner. These little things are making it easier not to ask him to come home. I do not want to go backward. I just want to keep going forward.