I took your advice Dee, and went to the mental health urgent care facility this morning. The anxiety was so bad I was having hallucinations. Once I said the "S" word I was not completely sure the were going to let me out of there, but after a couple of electroshocks and a lobotomy there figured I was safe enough to go free. I am going to see someone about an outpatient treatment program tomorrow and a therapist soon. I just hope the drooling doesn't short out my laptop.