Originally Posted by
duet_4-8 
Part of me wants to beat the $hit out of him, part of me wants to grab hold of him and never let go.
I know that feeling and it did a number on me. It got so bad I was starting to feel stabbing pains in my head. That was from me beating the figurative crap out of myself, instead of my daughter like I wanted. So I had to grab hold of myself for my own well being.
You know you're powerless and you know you're not helpless. What can you do to help yourself?
My thoughts and prayers are with you and your son.