I am SO @##$%^, that I could %^&*&^%, !*&*#@, another #@*&^% (Yeah, I've had some real potty mouth episodes I'm not proud of )
It's funny you said that Cece... I too discovered I could cuss like a sailor. I didn't always direct it at my A, but instead at some poor unsuspecting bystander who happened to mildly tick me off about something inane and silly. I found that I would misdirect my anger and frustration (while insisting I was able to keep my cool thru it all).
Another good reminder of what it was like back then and why I will do whatever it takes to remain in a healthy and balanced place.