My life was unmanageable the day I threatened to kick in the crack house door.
My life was unmanageable the days I appeared to be normal and functioning.
It was not about appearances, it was about the chaos going on in my head and my heart. I was always one trigger away from insanity.
My life was unhappy and there was no real peace in it, only momentary pauses in the chaos.
I knew my life was a mess, but I couldn't seem to fix it. Any promises I made myself never lasted long.
I was told by those who went before me that I didn't have to fix it. That if I worked the steps and just "tried" one day at a time...that the rest would fall into place.
Step two gave me hope that something greater than myself could help me...that I didn't have to do this alone...
Step Two: Came to believe that a power greater than ourselves could restore us to sanity.
But first I had to finish Step one. Working it had helped me face my issues, and surrender any ideas I had about controlling others. Now it was almost time to let a power greater than myself, help "me".