Do I just get up and walk away?
Hi I'm new here but reading your story brought up painful memories. My first marriage was emotionally and physically abusive. He was not a drinker. He was naturally a mean psychotical son of a bitch.
I kept thinking he always had some excuse for it, bad childhood, hardship with work etc....NO< he was just plain EVIL.
Love yourself and start a new life. You'll know when you had enough.
Best wishes to you.