Originally Posted by
onlyliveonce 
I can't change the past but I do make better decisions these days and nothing is even allowed around us if it will have a negative impact on us. All I can do is make better decisions from here on out, I can't make up or change something from the past.
I think you hit the nail on the head right there. Forgive yourself for the past and make positive changes for the future. It's the best thing you can do for your son and for yourself.
gentle hugs