Sending you all hugs, Freeing, and wishing you strength.
Dear Son had dental surgery a while back - I recall sitting in the waiting room, book in hand unread, coffee untouched, worrying about the risks, the outcome.... Then feeling the greatest release as the worry and pressure lifted when the doctor came out with a smile on his face to say DS did wonderfully and should wake from the anesthesia soon, follow him.
Hang in there. Hugs, hugs, hugs.