Hope things are going better for you today.
I had a great aunt that doctor shopped and was addicted to everything. She finally did enough damage to herself to wind up in a nursing home and of course they continued with the same meds but at lower doses. She would still manage to get tanked and call the fire dept about every other day to report a fire. (There were never any fires) I do not have any idea on how to manage an 85 year old drug addict that does these sorts of things. Some of this is compounded by natural senility so it's hard to figure out what's normal.
I hope some peace comes your way soon. A hug for you.