Welcome!
I was glad to read you've got a counselor...
this is far too difficult to go alone.
Along with others, I can't recommend enough looking into a circle of suppport,
namely ALANON ...
they know what your'e feeling, and you said you were loking for comraderie...
something for the back burner anyway.
Again welcome aboard.
Very sorry for the circumstance,
but always willing to make a new friend.