I dont know how many times i have tried to limit my alcohol intake to sensible levels, only to find after the first drink all such thoughts go out of the window, and I ended up blind drunk.
For me it is an all or nothing situation.
I was sober for 3 years and didnt drink at all, then i relapsed and was back as bad as ever. I am just over weeks sober now with a one night relapse and then same thing happend, ended up blind drunk.
I hope I learned from that.
Suzie x