Bklyn girl - just take it little bits at a time maybe.
Tomorrow you go to rest between shifts and you sleep in your own bed. If it messes with your peace of mind you make another plan. Not easy but I find it is overwhelming to try and figure everything out at once sometimes...
For me the gut check is: am I anxious/hesitant about this because of the effect/reaction of the other person? Am I trying to play this one moment "just right?" (usually a red flag for me!!)
Am I doing this solely for me and what is in my best interest and can I keep that uppermost in my mind through difficulty?
Peace-
B