Originally Posted by
Scooter77 
All very unsupportive of me I know. But I'm struggling to find my compassion for him just at this moment. I'm not overly proud of myself....but I'm just so over his self obsessed, alcoholic, lying, selfish crap! AAAARRRRGGGGHHHH
(((Scooter)))
I'm sorry. Please don't beat yourself up.
I don't believe you are unsupportive. I think you have shown amazing patience and understanding.
I believe you deserve to be treated with respect by your life partner. His behavior doesn't appear to be supportive of your rights as his life partner.
I don't have solutions for your situation. I just wanted you to know that you were heard. You are important. Your life matters. You are not alone.
In my relationship, once I became aware of the risks my alcoholic was taking (drinking then driving) I was unable to stay. I chose to walk away from the active addiction.
Prayers for your peace and serenity.