Originally Posted by
sadpanda 
It feels like my life revolves around the phone now. Waiting, hoping he'll call, never knowing when. I do not like uncertainty, I have (well I guess HAD) my life planned out for the next two years and now it's all in disarray. Which is another part of my problem with dealing.
There is a saying that goes something like...Life is what happens while we are busy making other plans. I'm pretty sure all of us have had our well-intentioned plans fall by the wayside due to life. We just have to deal with it.
Perhaps you should take this time to attend al-anon meetings and as suggested before, please get a copy of the book Codependent No More. None of us should allow our lives to solely depend upon another person. There are just too many variables in life that can come along and ruin our plans.