feels like my life revolves around the phone now. Waiting, hoping he'll call, never knowing when. I do not like uncertainty, I have (well I guess HAD) my life planned out for the next two years and now it's all in disarray. Which is another part of my problem with dealing.
Have faith.
Maybe look at it this way. Being in treatment now will give you a better life together than if he didn't do it or waited. Alcoholism is progressive, it is very possible it could have gotta a lot worse. But I think you that...
So now you can make new plans - sober life plans together. Brighter, happier, alcohol free plans that includes positive life enriching things.
It hard to be away from each other for any reason, I do remember young love. Aahhhh
And going away to rehab might be a little scary for you. Not knowing WHO he will be when he gets back, how different things will be...
So you want desperately to hear he still loves you and he misses you.
Does that scare you Panda (bear)?