Cheers Bernadette, fantastic to have you here too. Gosh, addiction is in my family too, grandparents and parents all had their episodes. The way I see it is that my Dad might no longer be drugging or drinking, but the issues which caused his addiction have not gone away, instead he uses his own brand of vigorous religion to work hardcorely through life.
I hope you can hang in there Bernadette, family members take the matter of co depenbdancy to a whole new level. Please feel free to come discuss at any point when your head is feeling low or you feel melted.