I am very happy that you have found your HP, Shana. You deserve to be loved unconditionally.
I just went through a spell of insanity. I consider that to be when my emotions drive me to illogical and exagerated decisions. It was fear this time, and a lot of the time that is the main thing, but anger, neediness, and other emotions can make me "insane" too. That is when I pray. ALOT. I can recognize when it happens, I can do the things that I have learned, but I believe only God can relieve me of those feelings. I know when I follow the impulses that are driving me, instead of doing the things that Alanon suggests, I get way out in left field. I may not be able to avoid or control these times, but Alanon and working the steps has helped me to lessen the devestation. Keep going girl. You are on the right track. Hugs, Magic